Heartfelt

I would like to pour my heart out to you

Often I do

As you know only too well

I would like to put into words

Feelings of fullness

Intoxication

Suffocation

Intimation of hell

As it swells to bursting with feeling

Leaving me gasping for air

Unable not to care

With its intense life grip

Encased in an iron glove

Longing

Oh agonised longing to love

I would love to let you in

To sacred places

Where long I have not been

To share these hallowed spaces

With faces unseen

But I have lost my way

Turned left

When it was obvious to everyone

That a right turn was required

Enmired as I am in me

I must have missed it

Pointless even to turn around

When you’re lost

Every way is right and wrong

Guidance song grown distant

Long lost too

To faraway time

A remembered moment of clarity

Where once my heart was mine

And I knew this intimately

And so the words have become fuzzy

Out of focus

Like I need glasses to read my own life

All I can hear enshrouded

In this park of darkness

Is a lone wolf howl

A low growl

Panting breath

My heart calling

From deep inside my breast

Outlined against a still full moon

It utters its presence

Its closeness

We are past words now

My heart and me

We must run in a pack of one

And see if this leads to me

Or further falseness

Do not summon me now

For I am sleeping

Nikolai Rozhonova